Words

I wish you could have said you were sorry.
And meant it.
Without the disclaimers, qualifiers, justifications and explanations.
Just genuinely meant it.

Because I miss you too
And I refuse to go back
To go backwards
To be blamed – even if you don’t say it
Taylor being overdramatic

You’ve never really been sorry before
For your actions.
No. Only sorry for my feelings.
For my reactions, my sole responsibility.
Reacting without provocation, effects without cause, of course.
I am a vacuum. I am an island.
Where inter is missing from action.

And by now I would have cracked.
Called. Hurt gone, move on.
But I am frozen from the lack of words.
You didn’t take back your attack of words.
And I can’t go backwards

And I wish you could have said you were sorry.
And fixed it.